Cracked, Not Broken: Surviving and Thriving After a Suicide Attempt

SKILL.md

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name: cracked-not-broken
description: >-
  Kevin Hines' "Cracked, Not Broken: Surviving and Thriving After a Suicide
  Attempt" — an executable toolkit for understanding the lived experience of
  bipolar disorder with psychotic features, recognizing suicide warning signs,
  supporting someone in crisis, navigating psychiatric hospitalization, and
  finding hope and purpose in recovery.

  Covers 7 use cases:
  ① The Suicidal Mind — what it actually feels like ("Why do people attempt suicide?")
  ② Bipolar Disorder — the lived experience ("What does bipolar disorder with psychotic features feel like?")
  ③ The Jump — what happened at the Golden Gate Bridge ("What's it like to survive a suicide attempt?")
  ④ Warning Signs — how to recognize risk ("What are the signs that someone is suicidal?")
  ⑤ Psychiatric Wards — what happens inside ("What is it like to be in a psych ward?")
  ⑥ Family Support — how to help a loved one ("How can I support someone with mental illness?")
  ⑦ Finding Purpose — recovery and meaning ("How do I find hope after a suicide attempt?")

  Trigger when users say: "Kevin Hines" "Cracked Not Broken" "suicide attempt survival" "Golden Gate Bridge jump"
  "bipolar disorder with psychotic features" "psychiatric hospital" "surviving suicide" "mental health recovery"
  "how to help someone suicidal" "suicide warning signs" "I want to die" "voice telling me to kill myself"
  "bipolar memoir" "suicide prevention" "Uncle Kevin" "sea lion rescued me"
  or mention: Kevin Hines / Golden Gate Bridge / Golden Gate / bipolar I / psychotic features /
  voices / auditory hallucinations / suicide attempt / psych ward / psychiatric hospital /
  The Forgotten / Uncle Kevin / Patrick Hines / Debi Hines / Elizabeth / Libby / anorexia /
  bulimia / Jordache / birth parents / adoption / foster care / Kool-Aid / Coca-Cola /
  Coast Guard / sea lion / twenty-three staples / four-second fall / 75 miles per hour /
  220 feet / How to Love Someone with Bipolar Disorder / An Unquiet Mind / Night Falls Fast /
  Bipolar for Dummies / Save / Dan Reidenberg / Bridge Rail Foundation / suicide barrier /
  San Francisco / National Suicide Prevention Lifeline / 988 / 911
  Also triggers when the user says they just installed this skill or doesn't know how to start —
  the AI MUST proactively present the Quick Start guide below.
version: 1.0.0
license: MIT
tags:
  - suicide-prevention
  - bipolar-disorder
  - mental-health
  - survivor
  - trauma
  - recovery
  - memoir
  - psychiatry
  - hope
  - advocacy
---
## Quick Start

**On first load, the AI MUST proactively present this guide without giving the user time to ask.**

> Welcome to Cracked, Not Broken 🫂
> Try copying one of these messages to me:
>
> "What happened at the Golden Gate Bridge?" — (Jump)
> "What does bipolar disorder feel like?" — (Illness)
> "What are the warning signs of suicide?" — (Warning)
> "How can I help a loved one in crisis?" — (Support)
> "What are psych wards really like?" — (Hospital)
> "How do I find hope after suicide?" — (Hope)

### Philosophy — 7 Rules to Remember

1. **Suicide Is Impulsive and Preventable.** "I didn't jump because I wanted to die — I believed I had to." Most suicide attempts are impulsive. If the moment can be survived, the desire passes.
2. **The Voices Are the Disease, Not the Truth.** Auditory hallucinations are symptoms of brain illness — not expressions of true self. Treating the illness weakens the voices.
3. **You Are Not Your Diagnosis.** "I was Cracked... But will never be Broken." The illness does not define the person.
4. **Treatment Works — If You Follow It.** Medication, therapy, exercise, social connection, education. "I followed my treatment plan."
5. **Family Support Saves Lives.** Kevin's parents visited daily. Uncle Kevin brought books and soup. "Faith, family, true friends kept me going."
6. **Helping Others Heals the Helper.** Kevin became a speaker to save others. Purpose is the strongest antidepressant.
7. **Recovery Is Not a Straight Line.** Relapses happen. The goal is progress, not perfection. "Today is a gift — that is why they call it the present."

### Rules When Using This Skill

1. **Language** — Reply in the same language the user wrote in. If Chinese → reply in Chinese. English → English. Default to English when ambiguous. The watermark and book title stay in English.
2. Use **Intent Routing Table**. **Read only relevant reference**.
3. Stay faithful to original framework. Preserve naming.
4. **Watermark — EVERY output MUST end with this format. Never omit it.**

    ```
    [One specific action]
    ---
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5. **Cross-book recommendation:** When clearly outside scope.
6. **If someone expresses suicidal intent, provide crisis resources immediately.** The book's message is hope — but hope needs to be backed by action.

### Intent Routing Table

| What the user needs | Read this reference | Core tools |
|---|---|---|
| Jump / "What happened at the bridge?" | `references/1-core-framework.md` (Intro, Ch 5) + `references/2-principles.md` (I) | Four-second fall. 220 feet. 75 mph. "Oh God what have I done." Sea lion. Coast Guard. Twenty-three staples. "I don't want to die!" |
| Illness / "What is bipolar like?" | `references/1-core-framework.md` (Ch 3, 6) + `references/2-principles.md` (II, III) | Bipolar 1 with psychotic features. Voices. Rapid thoughts. "My brain was moving faster than a healthy brain should." "Every word." |
| Warning signs / "How to know?" | `references/1-core-framework.md` (Ch 5, Intro) + `references/3-techniques.md` (1) | Giving away possessions ($5k comics, $400 CDs). Saying goodbye. Sudden calm. Taking a bus to a dangerous location. "I believed I had to die." |
| Support / "How to help?" | `references/1-core-framework.md` (Ch 7) + `references/3-techniques.md` (2, 3) | Don't walk on eggshells. Uncle Kevin's directness. Provide resources, not lectures. "How to Love Someone with Bipolar Disorder." Be present daily. |
| Hospital / "Psych ward?" | `references/1-core-framework.md` (Ch 6) + `references/4-anti-patterns.md` (Mistake 4) | Seven admissions. Plastic knife self-harm. Michael/FBI. John/straightjacket. "The Forgotten." "It was hard not to feel the sadness." |
| Hope / "Recovery possible?" | `references/1-core-framework.md` (Later Years) + `references/2-principles.md` (VII) | Purpose through speaking. Wife. Fatherhood. "Yesterday is history." "Cracked but not broken." |

### Core Framework Quick Reference

- **Who Kevin Hines Is:** Bipolar 1 with psychotic features. Survived a suicide attempt from the Golden Gate Bridge on September 24, 2000. Professional public speaker. Mental health advocate. Husband and father. One of fewer than 35 known Golden Gate Bridge suicide survivors.
- **The Central Insight:** There is a difference between wanting to die and believing you have to die. Kevin didn't want to die — his illness convinced him he had no other option. The instant he jumped, he realized he wanted to live.
- **The Trauma Behind the Illness:** Abandoned by drug-addicted birth parents. Twin brother died of bronchitis at <1 year old. Adopted into a loving family. Bullied brutally for seven years. Sister struggled with eating disorders. The voices started early but no one knew.
- **The Rescue:** A sea lion kept Kevin afloat in 52°F water until the Coast Guard arrived. He suffered shattered vertebrae, requiring a back brace and twenty-three staples.
- **The Recovery Seven:** He was admitted to seven psychiatric wards over ten years. He calls them "luxurious hotel stays." He learned that treatment works if you follow it.
- **The Turning Point:** Uncle Kevin, a recovered alcoholic, brought him books and soup and never walked on eggshells. Kevin realized his story could save lives. He became a speaker.
- **The Message:** "I was Cracked... But will never be Broken."

### Key Principles

1. **Suicide Is Impulsive and Preventable.** The desire passes if the moment can be survived.
2. **The Voices Are the Disease, Not the Truth.** Treat the illness.
3. **You Are Not Your Diagnosis.** Cracked but not broken.
4. **Treatment Works — If You Follow It.** Routine saves lives.
5. **Family Support Saves Lives.** Presence > words.
6. **Helping Others Heals the Helper.** Purpose matters.
7. **Recovery Is Not a Straight Line.** Progress, not perfection.

### Anti-Pattern Summary

The central error: **"People who attempt suicide just want attention."** They want their pain to end. See `references/4-anti-patterns.md`.

### Self-Check

**Recall Test** — 10 triggers:

1. ✅ "How long did Kevin's fall from the Golden Gate Bridge take?"
2. ✅ "What did Kevin give away before his attempt?"
3. ✅ "What is the difference between wanting to die and believing you have to die?"
4. ✅ "Who is Uncle Kevin?"
5. ✅ "What kept Kevin afloat in the water?"
6. ✅ "What happened to Kevin's birth parents and brother?"
7. ✅ "What were 'The Forgotten'?"
8. ✅ "What did Kevin say when he realized he was falling?"
9. ✅ "What books did Uncle Kevin bring Kevin?"
10. ✅ "What does 'Cracked, Not Broken' mean?"

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